I know to a lot of people I'm complaining but if you don't wanna hear it don't read it....
So I've been extremely depressed lately because Egor broke up with me. It's terrible I always feel like crying or dying and I don't want to let go even though I know I should, I still love him and he still loves me.. He told me that he did... Whenever I go online and I see his picture on myspace I just feel like I'm going to die and just start screaming in pain I don't know what to do it tears me apart, all I want is to still be with him and I can't do anything about it. He made me promise not to hurt myself but every time I'm around him or that I talk to him it hurts me and I guess I'm breaking that promise because I cant help it, because I feel like I need him in my life. He says that if its meant to be then we'll end up together and I want to hope it will happen but I don't want to set myself up for more heartbreak. I wish I could explain how terribly hopelessly miserably I am without him but I don't have the words to explain the ripping tearing dying heart-stopping pain that I feel without him.